hello lovelies! its a stay home thursday today. and its killing me! im super uper zuper bored! although im a good girl today, but im super bored! OHMYGOODNESS. its hard to be a good girl, eh? D: cause i have nothing to do at home. /: kay, currently just finished uploading ytd's photos. andand, talking to cien and huiting on skype! :D hehehehe. right, at least its a little better than just now~ was practically sleeping my day away. lolol. ~ hmmm, i am out of topics to talk to you guys. how? .................. ohohoh! tmr is APRIL FOOLS DAY! dont get trick okay, everyone out there! weeeeets. i hope i dont get tricked toooo! ^^ but tsk, how, im kinda gullible! hahaha! :) probably going to MFM @ PS tmr to firstly, to eat their fish and chips cause it's on sale or something according to stephen, secondly, go and visit my laopa, stephen! and lastly, i have never ate MFM before. :) haha! and yay! going out with szemin and vivien next week! ^^ i cant wait for clique outing on saturday! like finally, we're meeting as a whole! miss you guys like mad hell. i really wonder what kind of a guy you are, sometimes!

hello lovelies. HAPPY JUST BELATED BIRTHDAY, CIEN && KIKWANG OPPA! :D yay~ had fun today with cien, huiting, tingxin, xiuzhen, rachel, chinyi, clar, steph, bert and tang! had yuki yaki steamboat and kbox! then after that went for "voyage de la vie" concert @ resorts world sentosa! IT WAS AWESOMEEEEEEE! i swear man. those gymnastians are damn pro (Y) and the magic is damn cool toooo! didnt regret going there to watch. :) heheeee. thanks candy for the complimentary tickets toooooooo! ^^ kay anyway, im having flu and "going to have" the kind of sorethroat. SIGHHHHHHHH. hate being sick! D: hope that i'll recover soon okay! (Y) will be uploading the pictures taken today, nono, ytd i mean, on fb! :) ~ Cause when you're happy, i am too. Cause every memory with you, means like the world to me. Cause when you love someone, you'll want them to be happy.

i shall start off my post with a early birthday wish to my dearest omma love. HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY OMMA! <3

hello lovelies! here to update my bloggy. :D heees. had a great time ytd with my girls! only that my dearest kelly is missing! D: sigh, i miss you so much, kelly! ): sadddddd~ meet up soon k! :D went out with my girls to shopping, and eating! weeets. took many photos! uploaded on fb! hehe.

love going out with them, they make me feel im living for something, make me feel like friends are the best thing in the world! ily guys man. yay. kay went out to have lunch and walk ard at bugis with cien omma today! but it got too boring so decided to come over to my place, and slacked! hahahaha. watched stupid videos and talk alot of craps. haha. happy much! gonna marina square tmr for yukiyaki steamboat with many many people! going to take many photos and upload them okay! :D weeeeeees.

because sometimes, the people you cant live without, can live without you. wondering if you ever know how i felt. wondering, if you ever cared. seeing the closeness and bond you two have for each other, hurts me alot. you have no idea, how much you meant to me in my heart.

you have no idea, how much it hurts me when i saw things that i didnt want to see.everytime when i feel like giving up and moving on, little nice nothings from you would destroy that thought and spoil everything.i guess everything now shown is the true reality that i have to accept.and guess its really time for me to move on now. till then, iloveyou. and i'll never ever hate you even though, you fooled once, you fooled me twice. thankyou for telling me those sweet words that make me feel like im the world's luckiest girl, even though, it was all just lies.

so true. :) ohoh, ITS A BORING DAY! D: nothing on today, hate the feeling of rotting. /: cant wait for tmr! :D finally able to amandaaaaaaaa ~ like after, so longgg! :D hehehe. gonna snap many photos! ^^ yay. :D suddenly feel like i miss many of my friends in school! havent been catching up w people like PANG YONG KOK! totally miss him, didnt go out yet mannnnn~ wondering when will be the day! have to really catch up soon, or else poly is starting and we'll all drift! its good and its bad, isnt it? good that we made new friends, good that we've started our next chapter. but bad that we'll never meet often again, and bad, that i'll miss everything in secondary school sooo freaking much! sigh, this is life, isnt it? guess we'll all just have to accept it and move on! oh, check out CNBLUE's intuition. catchy song! ^^

hello lovelies!
i feel like posting a long post today~
dont know why, feels like i've already moved on.
is it a good or bad thing uh?
or is it me myself, convincing myself that i've moved on,
to make me feel better? /:
i've no idea myself. when i see your name in my fb or msn,
you've got no idea how much, i feel like talking to you.
but i cant do it, cause i know, if i did it,
it isnt benefitting me. im so confused.
sigh. how i wished, everything can quickly come to a stop.
my feelings for you is always hidden inside my heart, i guess?
seems like everything is changing alr.
really wonder if this cycle will continue..
and you, do you hate me anot? i really dont know luh.
you see me, like got alot of problems against me one,
but you can talk nice nice to me suddenly.
seriously have no idea WHY you hate me?
i also never do anything to you? zzz.
you're the first person i had a bad impression on in school!
you mark history. hahaha.
alright, enough of my personal feelings.
im alright, PEOPLE.
haha. just really not sure whether i had moved on anot.
hopefully, i really did. :D
hmmm, went to compass to look for that tingxin w cien! ^^
bought a watch from her ( im nice, right ) hhaha.
love it max, only its abit big on my wrist! but have to get used to it.
haha. love going out w cien, cause she's understands me most! <3
hehehehe. right, byeee!
i.want.to.cut.my.fringe.
its totally annoying meeeee~.~

hello lovelies!
right, mahjong today was, hmm, okay?
won 2 dollars -_- haha. atleast better than losing!
oh, went back to school to collect testimonial~
miss yuying muchhhhhh! saw some teachers and chatted for awhile.
hmm, really miss those times with all my friends in yuying!
wondering if poly life will be as memorable as secondary school.
what kind of friends will i make? hmmm. it leaves me wondering.
alright, monday gonna meet amanda and kelly,
after like, zomfggggggg long with the other two girls. (:
excited much! ^^
up till now, 1c'07,2c'08,3c'09,4E3'10; i missed them all. esp.you.
~
why still hold on to the things that remind us of the past,
when we have already decided to move on?

hello lovelies!
right, vi's blog is finally made over! :)
happy for her!
hahah. had a great time at her place~
hope to see you againnnnn! ^^ hehe.
oh, had a fun day today!
went over to ht's place to coooooook! weeets.
with cien and stephen. omma and appa. :D
HAHAHA. okay dont kill me ~
heheh. the food was OKAY lehhhhhh, happy much.
esp the veg! super nice. haha.
fun and enjoyable! helped to wash the dishes.
then after, watched "where got ghost?" movie on internet tgt!
hehe. got shocks quite a number of times /:
lolol. but overall, quite a funny movie haa!
left her place at ard 615pm, then bus-ed to nex to meet mum.
ate dinner and mum built a bear! hahaha. ~
bought new contacts YAY, thanks mum! ^^
home after that! :D hahaha.
gonna belinda's place tmr to play mj, and also going school collect testi. :D
hehehe. alright goodbye!

hello lovelies!
i had a great time today.
firstly, I ONLY ATE ONE MEAL TODAY. (Y)
totally proud of myself. HAHA. okay its stupid anw.
haha. secondly, although i losed $ in mahjong today,
im glad i played with new people today hehe! ^^
lastly, i finally went out with szemin dearest! :D
yay. ~
bought clothes and earrings! while she got clothes, shoes and earrings!
ohh, and we took neoprints too! (:
pictures with szemin, in fb!
haha. alright, gna to work tmr, wonder if its gna be fun? O:
though i need to wake up a zomfg timing, 7.30am. (sians)
hahah. right, gotta do something now!
goodbye!
~
dearest of the dearest nun noinoy, rachel.
this post is especially for you.
heard you over thru the phone, you're soooo nt okay.
i know, you're just lying that you're fine, cause you dont want me to worry.
looked thru your blogpost alr.
i recalled everything single i had with him as well.
its seems, so familiar.. maybe thats why i totally know you felt when you posted it.
i know that you needed to vent your feelings somewhere.
cause, its all bottled up in your heart, until now its over-filling yeah? i know~
cause i feel this way too. but nun,
do you remember, what you said to me, on the 18th of march, friday?
i told you what you posted exactly.
i told you everything changed in a few days. after my hainan trip.
yours was after your bintan trip.
i told you what happen and now, he's happily with her,
while im here suffering alone.
do you remember, me telling you that i feel like the most stupid girl in the world,
bec i got fooled the third time, over the same darn guy?
do you remember, me telling you that whatever he said was lies?
do you remember me telling you that maybe he was lying the whole time,
and it was just me and my wishful thinking?
he made promises to me as well, and for promises made by the person you love
to be broken hurts us so much, i know.
nun, you were the one that told me, im not the most stupid girl in the world,
its him, its him that doesnt know how to cherish me.
you were one that told me that out there, there's many other doors open for me.
now, its my turn.
you're not stupid, nun.
i believed his sweet words as well, and got fooled too.
if you were stupid, then i am stupid as well.
he might have fooled you, but its him, its his loss. he doesnt know how to cherish you.
at least now you know, and you can prevent yourself frm being fooled once more.
and yes, not crying is an impossible task to do.
cause sometimes, crying makes me feel better too, does it for you?
but theres a saying , " KU GUO JIU SUAN LE"
obviously, its hard to let go just like that after sucha close bond you once had with him.
i know, its hard. cause im struggling too.
bt nun, whether you can sucessful forget him,
starts with your first step. your heart.
its whether it wants to forget anot. if its determine,
sooner or later, no matter how long, 1 month, 1 year,
im sure, you'll be able to do it. time, is what you and i need.
time not only helps us forget, it also reveals everything.
however i want to let you know, im here for you alright?
no matter whoever, ah mao ah gou, dont want you, there's still me okay?
I WILL FOREVER WANT YOU!
cause you're probably the only one, that i know fully understands it.
remember? we're suppose to do it tgt!
nun! you've got to stand back up! and walk thru this,
cause everyone else is moving on, besides us. if we dont choose to stand,
we'll be forever stuck in this trap. standing up and falling at the same spot.
im sure, we can do it alright? now, i want you to cheer up okay!
dont think of him, dont think of anything abt this anymore,
its gonna be hard, but if theres a will, theres always a way!
i'll be thru thick and thin with you.
i understand that you might feel sad when you see things that remind you of him,
but tell yourself, maybe everything was just, fated.
if he was really meant for you, no matter how long, how far,
he'll still be yours. but if he isnt, no matter how much you fight,
he wouldnt be. so honey girl, cheer up okay?
at least you know, there's another person out there smiling bec you live,
living bec you live. at least you know,
there's another person who knows exactly how you feel~
alright?
NUN! YOU NEED TO CHEER UP SO I HAVE THE STRENGTH TO MOVE ON.
WE BOTH NEED TO CHEER UP, RIGHT? (:

hello all!
its a really boring sunday.
zzz, nothing to do but watching taiwan shows.
cant wait for tmrrrrrr!
finally meeting up w szemin loveee! (:
excited~
and im actually excited with tuesday'sjob.
wondering what im doing o.o
hopefully its fun, and i can survive with those black heels*
haha. right, nothing much else goodbye!
~
decided, to give up.

cant believe i actually saw it with my own eyes.
you lied to me, once again.
all your replies from my letter to you,
was just a whole crap of bullshit.
my heart sank, when i saw you with her, once again, just now.
had you ever thought of my feelings?
im a human too you know, i have feelings too.
where did all your promises go to?
you once promised me that whatever you said to me,
is true from your heart. is your real feelings.
you promised me that you wouldnt lie to me,
and you wouldnt contact her anymore.
you told me you were not friends with her anymore.
deleted her off fb, msn and your phone contact.
but what is it i saw today?
my heart is totally shattered.
you stabbed me once, thinking you'll repent,
i trusted you again. but you stabbed me once again.
if you couldnt keep your promise, why did you made them in the first place?
what are words, if you really dont mean them when you say them?

im feeling empty.
i tried, seriously.
i tried, telling myself i could get over you.
tried telling myself, that i can do without you.
tried going out w my friends.
tried keeping myself busy with things.
so that i wouldnt think of you.
but, i failed.
i just cant do it! why?
im so disappointed with myself. ):
my whole mind is filled with everything.
everything fucking thing about you.
what am i supposed to do now?
im soooo lost without you.
im like aimless. i have no where to go.
i thought, that not thinking about you,
will make me forget you.
but no i didnt. i failed.
how can i move on,
when my heart is still with you?
i still love you.
sigh. ~
this feeling sucks.
the feeling of emtpyness,
the feeling of knowing, that nobody's there.
the feeling, of being alone.

helloooo~
IM BACK FROM HAINAN ISLAND! C:
hees. hmmm, china has quite nicee scenery! ^^
only that i didnt quite like their dirty toliets, and
oily oily food! /: but nevertheless, everything was a great experience!
heees. :D
hmmm, photos are all w my mom and uncles,
hopefully they'll post up on fb! (:
awww miss all of my friends! ):
hopefully able to meet them sooooon~
and i wna play mahjongg. D:
*sian*
haha. alright, nothing else much!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SZEMIN&IRVIN! :D
imissyou.
how can i move on, when im still in love with you?

hello!
im leaving for china on friday 6am.
which means i have to reach airport at 4am.
which means i have to wake up at 3am.
i can might as well dont sleep! -.-
kay, hopefully my time there will be enjoyable. /:
and, anybody out there thats free tmr?
i wna go IT FAIR to see laptops and itouch!
tmr is the only day i can goooo~
i should be working tmr de loh, cashier at it fair.
but the trip clashed with everything.
sians*
kay gdnight, no mood at all!
planning a clique outing is damn difficult!

hiii~
today is a boring day. D:
went out to take medical report,
and then huiting came over to my house and
did her online enrollment. (:
hmm, going to CO's soundcheck tmrr~
wonder how it'll be like. :D heeeees!
finally done with my enrollment of tp, ( relieves )
going to tp to pass to them by hand cause dad says mailing is unsafe._.
haha. alright, nothing else much to say.
leaving to china in 4 more days /:
and, im gna miss you. ):

hellooooo~

alright, posting from SPCA day.

looook @ the ad! its so, OMG.

seriously, how i wished that i could help those poor animals there find a home.

a home, where their owners will really care for them, and love them.

the dogs there are realllyyy cuteeee though~

anyone wna get a pet, GO TO SPCA TO ADOPT KAY!

save a life there! C:

i wna go and be a volunteer there someday.

i really hope i can! ^^

and seriously i hateeee abusers ttm.

they are all lifeless and sadistic! omg, hurting animals.

TSK. recently those rabbits cases, OMG.

burn in hell lah you people. @:

okay ANYWAY, went to spca on, wednesday! ^^

thursday, happpyy birthday TINGXIN!

went to eat @ swensens, neoprints and kbox :D

had fun, lets go out again someday k! C:

friday went for medical checkup @ changi airport t3 raffles medical!

one hour plus only~ LUCKIILYYYY. ~

haha. eyesight SUCKED like mad. see a 6 as 5 .___.

lolol. monday gna collect my x-ray and report! ((:

hopefully queue is not long. :x

haha. alrighttttt, bought new converse shoes! :D

happy! C: navy colour~

hmmm, went to buy my shoes today,

then after to john's house. ( new friend that i made )

w jialin, jasmine and brans! C:

OREO IS SUPERRRRRR CUTEEEEE!

hehehe.

alright, done. byeeee~

should i get a itouch? /:

and check out my new blogsong! by GAGA.

but the one i got is by alex goot, i find his voice nicer though :x

no offence!

and, iloveyou! no matter what~

happy birthday, szekeat! C:

though most of the time was spent at the dumb polyclinic,

buttttt, hope you had a nice time w us. :D
and takecare of stomach okay? C:

haha.

alright, pictures speak a thousand words.

BYEEEEEEEEE~

and, the enrollment stuff is seriously, killing me /:

anyone, help?

oh and, Happy birthday, jbieber! :D