im feeling empty.
i tried, seriously.
i tried, telling myself i could get over you.
tried telling myself, that i can do without you.
tried going out w my friends.
tried keeping myself busy with things.
so that i wouldnt think of you.
but, i failed.
i just cant do it! why?
im so disappointed with myself. ):
my whole mind is filled with everything.
everything fucking thing about you.
what am i supposed to do now?
im soooo lost without you.
im like aimless. i have no where to go.
i thought, that not thinking about you,
will make me forget you.
but no i didnt. i failed.
how can i move on,
when my heart is still with you?
i still love you.
sigh. ~
this feeling sucks.
the feeling of emtpyness,
the feeling of knowing, that nobody's there.
the feeling, of being alone.

helloooo~
IM BACK FROM HAINAN ISLAND! C:
hees. hmmm, china has quite nicee scenery! ^^
only that i didnt quite like their dirty toliets, and
oily oily food! /: but nevertheless, everything was a great experience!
heees. :D
hmmm, photos are all w my mom and uncles,
hopefully they'll post up on fb! (:
awww miss all of my friends! ):
hopefully able to meet them sooooon~
and i wna play mahjongg. D:
*sian*
haha. alright, nothing else much!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SZEMIN&IRVIN! :D
imissyou.
how can i move on, when im still in love with you?

hello!
im leaving for china on friday 6am.
which means i have to reach airport at 4am.
which means i have to wake up at 3am.
i can might as well dont sleep! -.-
kay, hopefully my time there will be enjoyable. /:
and, anybody out there thats free tmr?
i wna go IT FAIR to see laptops and itouch!
tmr is the only day i can goooo~
i should be working tmr de loh, cashier at it fair.
but the trip clashed with everything.
sians*
kay gdnight, no mood at all!
planning a clique outing is damn difficult!

hiii~
today is a boring day. D:
went out to take medical report,
and then huiting came over to my house and
did her online enrollment. (:
hmm, going to CO's soundcheck tmrr~
wonder how it'll be like. :D heeeees!
finally done with my enrollment of tp, ( relieves )
going to tp to pass to them by hand cause dad says mailing is unsafe._.
haha. alright, nothing else much to say.
leaving to china in 4 more days /:
and, im gna miss you. ):

hellooooo~

alright, posting from SPCA day.

looook @ the ad! its so, OMG.

seriously, how i wished that i could help those poor animals there find a home.

a home, where their owners will really care for them, and love them.

the dogs there are realllyyy cuteeee though~

anyone wna get a pet, GO TO SPCA TO ADOPT KAY!

save a life there! C:

i wna go and be a volunteer there someday.

i really hope i can! ^^

and seriously i hateeee abusers ttm.

they are all lifeless and sadistic! omg, hurting animals.

TSK. recently those rabbits cases, OMG.

burn in hell lah you people. @:

okay ANYWAY, went to spca on, wednesday! ^^

thursday, happpyy birthday TINGXIN!

went to eat @ swensens, neoprints and kbox :D

had fun, lets go out again someday k! C:

friday went for medical checkup @ changi airport t3 raffles medical!

one hour plus only~ LUCKIILYYYY. ~

haha. eyesight SUCKED like mad. see a 6 as 5 .___.

lolol. monday gna collect my x-ray and report! ((:

hopefully queue is not long. :x

haha. alrighttttt, bought new converse shoes! :D

happy! C: navy colour~

hmmm, went to buy my shoes today,

then after to john's house. ( new friend that i made )

w jialin, jasmine and brans! C:

OREO IS SUPERRRRRR CUTEEEEE!

hehehe.

alright, done. byeeee~

should i get a itouch? /:

and check out my new blogsong! by GAGA.

but the one i got is by alex goot, i find his voice nicer though :x

no offence!

and, iloveyou! no matter what~

happy birthday, szekeat! C:

though most of the time was spent at the dumb polyclinic,

buttttt, hope you had a nice time w us. :D
and takecare of stomach okay? C:

haha.

alright, pictures speak a thousand words.

BYEEEEEEEEE~

and, the enrollment stuff is seriously, killing me /:

anyone, help?

oh and, Happy birthday, jbieber! :D

happy 19th birthday, SISSY! C:

stay pretty, and retarded! C:

i love you! ^^

haha. cake was blown ytd though, @ ahma's house.

today went for thai express dinner, @ t1. :D

hope you liked the ring and chocolates. (:

kay, went for CO today.

saw zhangbin., after so long, omg!

tx and i bought him a photo frame with his photos.

hope he likes it much! (:

hahah. kay, anyway, tmr is szekeat's birthday!

so in advance,

happy birthday szekeattt! stay handsomeee! ^^

haha. but dont be tooooooo high self-esteemed.___.

lols. kbox-ing tmr @ scape! :D

hope it'll be fun! :D

hees. wednesday SPCA! OMGGG excited much!

thursday tingxin's birthday celebration. (:

yays. packed this week and im loving it. C:

alright, nothing much else to say. bye! ^^

~

a few months back,

you told me, that you wanted to win my heart.

i still recalled the time, when you told me,

your feelings and how i reacted.

i wonder if you felt sad, cause thats hw i feel now.

maybe its true, what goes around, comes around.

isnt it?

it came back, to me afterall.

i finally understand, how people never cherish,

until its gone.

whatever it is, since reality has taken me this far,

i guess i'll have to face it, and move on.

what's not mine, can never be mine.

so, no point forcing it, cause after everything,

it will return to their rightful owners.

i'll just have to keep myself occupied with things,

cause i know, whenever i have nothing on,

my mind starts to ponder and wonder,

why did things turn out this way.

im sure i'll be able to walk out of this shadow in my life,

and face the mirror smiling once more.

im sure, that i can move on like how i did previously.

time is all i need. no matter hw long it is.

time, is the key to heal up all my wounds.

but just to let you know,

even if i had moved on,

YOU,

will always be in my heart,

no matter when, you'll be inside,

cause the scar is left behind.