hi, this post is actually for you. but you wont see it. cause, afterall, my blog's privated. im posting this bec i really have too much feelings bottled up in my heart. i cant help but pour it out alr. the ultimate reason why i posted this was to apologise to you. im sorry, really, sincerely sorry. i didnt know that all along, i've misunderstood you. to this extend then every thing bad that happens i really assume that its you who did it. well maybe you could be lying like again. everytime. but im really sure that you aint that guy in my nightmares this time. im sorry, for everything that i had misunderstood you okay? i didnt mean to make you guilty over it. i didnt know! well, now that _ knows alr, we both cant help but do nothing, isnt it? i guess its really that incident that made him find out bah. but, i know that it isnt you alr, she has clarified with me. and i take back my words, i dont, hate you anymore. and you're no bastard to me. i am sorry. and lastly, you're not a jerk. (: